Hello my friends,
This is probably the most vulnerable post I've ever written, but I felt that by writing down my thoughts, I could maybe connect with at least one person who has felt the same. Over the last few weeks I've had the urge to dive back into my "spiritual learnings." Now, I'm not talking about religion. I'm taking about the connection to myself and what I already posses inside. For a lot of my life I've been a "spiritual" person with the desire to be the best person/human being that I can. I realized that I've been working so hard lately that I've forgotten to put into practice everything that I've learned. By stressing and pushing myself to the limit, I am actually cutting off my connection to the universe. In other words, I'm cutting off the flow of energy from myself to the universe. Because truly, we are all made up of energy. I'm sure you've heard the term, Karma - what you put out, you get in return. If you want love, then give love. If you want abundance, then give to others. If you want respect, then give respect, etc... It's also called The Golden Rule.
One night I was watching Oprah's Next Chapter and found myself captivated by the episode. I had never heard of the man on the screen, or his seminars before, but I found his words and message so inspiring. His name is Tony Robbins. He is a motivational life coach who teaches people how to live their best lives and to live with purpose. I immediately went onto my Kindle and downloaded one of his books, Awakening the Giant Within. I devoured the book, and from there, sparked an overwhelming need to focus more on living my life's true purpose. I believe all of use have a purpose and a unique gift to share with the world.
Over the last week I've read three books by one of the most famous spiritual teachers, Deepak Chopra. One of the teachings that really grabbed me, from both Tony and Deepak, was...Expectations & Judgement. Many of us have a preconceived vision of how things are "supposed" to go or how other people are "supposed" to react. I know that I do - even though I am working to change. This especially rings true when it comes to my husband. Tony Robins said something that really stuck with me, "Trade your expectation for appreciation and the world will change with you." I realized that when my husband would do something or say something that didn't meet my expectation I became frustrated. My expectation led to pain. Then, I also realized, who am I to dictate how anything or anyone reacts, including my husband. This is a job designed for a being much higher than myself.
This past weekend my husband said something to me that would have otherwise made me irritated, but I decided to change my thinking and in return changed the outcome. He needed time to work on his graduate work over a very busy weekend. Before the start of a hectic day he said to me, "I need you to give me time to do my work." Feeling overwhelmed and stressed my first instinct was to snap at him. Instead, I changed my pattern of thinking and in return changed his. In a comical voice I said, "I am the oh so powerful keeper of time," and bowed as if I were getting ready to grant him three wishes. I don't think this was the response he was expecting because he just stared at me like I had three heads. Then, after the shock wore off, in a playful tone he said, "I request five hours." With that, I responded, "Granted." We then broke into laughter. It was wonderful. Instead of arguing, we were laughing. Suddenly, a day that seemed packed with responsibilities a few minutes earlier, was no longer weighing on me. Instead, I was excited to venture into the unknown and go with the flow - because, "What you have is this moment with the people you love. Live every moment without assuming that there will be another moment. Then you are living on purpose." -T.D. Jakes
We fear not having control, but in truth, we can't control the future, only live in the present. If we are always looking to the future we will never really have a present.
Thanks for letting me share an experience from my personal life. As I learn I will continue to share my learning put into practice on my blog for anyone who is interested in my journey. It is my hope that by sharing my experiences I can help someone else. I believe it is important to give and show gratitude. I am so thankful for you *hugs*.
Thank you so much for stopping by. I would love to hear your comments/experiences/thoughts. We can learn from each other.